Baby is already invading my dreams! Hahaha… I have these vivid dreams that make not want wake up. Like Friday night I had this dream that I was at my doctor’s appointment and I look over at the ultrasounds machine and could see that I was having twins. Hahaha! Then I had a dream last night that I had already had my daughter and my dad was holding her as an infant and then I looked at my mom and she was helping her kind of walk along and she was a little older. She had these big round brown eyes with short super blonde hair (like Bryan and I both when we were little) and she was wearing a little pink shirt with a demin skirt. Ugh! Then I woke up because I had to pee. I love those dreams though and like Jenny McCarthy said in Belly Laughs, its really like you get to spend time with your baby before its born. Even if you don’t know the sex or anything. Or in my case, you’re only a month along.

Hahaha, I always wake up and share my dreams with my sweetie. I told him about the twins dream and it threw him the curve ball of what we would name them.. Hahaha. Twins run in my family and for my generation. My sister’s twins would have been around 10-years-old now and it wouldn’t be any real shock to possibly have twins. Hooooly moly! Haha, we’re in that fun stage of thinking about baby names though. Thats something you can be a week or nine months pregnant and you’re still allowed to do it because its fun for dad and its fun to imagine. SO, we thought of little reserve names just in case as a back-up. Sharing some of the not-so-fun things about pregnancy isn’t really fun for him, so I try to include him in as much as possible. With that said, we’re thinking (as a safe precaution) we also like the name Owen Michael and we think Tinsley James. Hahaha, we could sit there for ever going over names because he likes unique (not not weird) names and I like very traditional names but not bland or over-used.

Anyway, I highly doubt we will end up having twins, but The Name Game is a fun part of pregnancy to include him in.

Also, its bananas for anyone to message my ex, who lives in Salt Lake City, to tell him how I’m pregnant and blah, blah, blah. He already knew! I told him personally and he is absolutely elated for Bryan and I. I’m 22-years-old and he will be 25-years-old shortly. This isn’t high school gossip; this is our lives as adults and we’re both happy for each other and the lives we have today. Also, my life is absolutely perfect and content and my eyes right now. Look at your own and reflect on that same question if you’re gossiping like a 14-year-old girl.

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OH! A bunch of you still be happy. LMAO.. I had gained “relationship weight” and would go between 115lbs.-119lbs., but shit I was constantly dying and not eating consistently. I dare you to take food away from me when I’m hungry now. I eat 3 good full meals a day, or about 5 fuller meals a day now and make sure I’m taking in a few extra calories. Now I’m my normal weight of 123lbs. that I should of been all along at my height of 5′6″. Hahaha, so it isn’t like I’m downing twinkies and ho-hos and suddenly ballooned up.. I’m just eating way healthy and eating ona regular meal plan so I’m not underweight for my height. I’m normal! :) For baaaaaaby! They’ve stopped adding on and I’m not currently gaining any more weight for the time being. I assume I’ll probably be like my sister and hit around 145lbs. At lweast all my clothes still fit. Until I have to start wearing this: Best Shirt EVER

Trust me, this was planned, but we weren’t exactly thinking I’d have such luck on the first try. I’m currently taking tons (not tons, but plentiful) amounts of prenatal vitamins and extra folic acid (because of that whole MTHFR thing) to make sure that baby and I are n a healthy path.

I have my first appointment on the 15th with my OBGYN to get my medical confirmation and ultrasound. For those who asked, we decided to have a baby pre-wedding because I have health insurance now, but won’t once we decide to get married. I heard somewhere that it costs upward of $40,000 to have a baby for the uninsured, but this way it will cost me (at most) $500 out of pocket and my baby will either be covered by my current insurance or Bryan’s benefits once he gets them from work. If not, Florida has Florida Kid Care which, if I’m not mistaken, will cost $15 a month for the baby.

Ugh, I am disgustingly excited and so happy. Everyone knows this is the one thing I ever wanted and its incredible. I mean, the peeing 24-7 is kinda funny and the sore boobies sucks, but I can’t wait for every physical step until I meet my baby in 8 or so months.

Its so adorable, Bryan bought me Jenny McCarthy’s Belly Laughs because I’ve been wanting to read it (even pre-pregnancy). It is hysterical! Sometimes a little crazy and scary, but I randomly sit there and bust out laughing. I want to read as much as possible during my pregnancy and learn as much about my experiences in motherhood-to-come, so I’m trying to read a book every week. Hehehe, lots of books, but this one is only 167ish pages, so I’m nearly done from last night and books like that aren’t too bad. I saw others, Baby’s First Tattoo and some others, that look adorable and want to read.

Hehe, now for the dead set question? Do I want a boy or girl? and What are the names?

I sound like a loony, but I’ve always assumed I would have a girl for my first pregnancy and still have this gut instinct that I’ll have a little girl. Afterall, the Chinese lunar charts say with my date of birth and the date of conception, I’ll have a baby girl. With that said though, my gut instinct is nearly always wrong and I’m the most skeptical person ever. Hahaha, so given those circumstances, Bryan will have his little Gage Holden, but I’m sticking to my gun and saying we’ll see little Ava Frances in a few months. Regardless, I’ll find out around 9 weeks or so when I have my CVS test done. :) I demand this test simply to make sure my pregnancy is a healthy and happy one.

P.S.: My Bellabutton is going to be a mommy too!

P.S.S.: Our family and closest friends offer us their utmost support! :)

And my life is amazing!!!

Actually, I just told a total bullshit lie up there. Unlike my lazy weekend, my boyfriend and I actually got some painting done around the house. My mom is moving back to New Orleans to be with my dad and family.. Well, she’ll be spending most of her days in the month there.. I didn’t exactly want to move back to Louisiana. Luckily my parents don’t want to sell the house either, so I get to mooch off of them under their roof. By mooch, I mean start paying the mortgage, utilities, expenses, etc. There’s no way I could stay here alone though. My mom goes out of town and I start crying because I get lonely.. Haha; Vagina. So, my boyfriend and I decided that living together here is where we wanted to go with the relationship, soo….. LONG STORY SHORT: we’re re-decorating. There’s still so much to do though. Especially because I asked one of my best friends to move in with us and that’s just more stuff to do. Still, we have to: Finish painting the trim/baseboards, re-floor new wood floors, sell the dining room table & buy a cafe table, turn my mom’s office into a studio/back into a guest bedroom, paint other various BS, buy the new loveseat, etc., etc. Obviously those are all eventual projects, but not anything I want to put off for months. Slowly, but surely.. Piece-by-piece. Like with the new curtains I bought. Oh sales, I love thee.

Oh, in regards to my sidekick..
A friend of mine decided to buy my LX from me. Aside from a few vanity flaws, it’s completely fine, but I’m just over having a Sidekick. i figured some sort of PSA/Smartphone was the best decision for what I need in regards to school and work and, unfortnately, the LX system doesn’t really hold what I need for my daily practical tasks. I had initially looked at a Samsung BlackJack II, but AT&T give me a headache and I didn’t feel liek ahving to change my phone number again. So, I decided to go with the T-Mobile Wing. Ok, it’s not as fashionable and popular as some phones in the market, but I wasn’t planning on color coordinating it into my wardrobe anyway. I’m more stoked on the tech aspects of it. Hasta la Vista Scenekick!

Anyhow, my friend is taking the LX off my hands for me. The Sidekick LX with OTA video update, two memory cards, a wall charger, cell phone holder, and car charger for $125. Not too bad, right? I’m gonna take care of that as soon as my phone gets here. HURRRRRRRRRRRY!

I know I’m late on the bandwagon, but my mom got me the Leopard OS for my Mac today. I’m actually stuck in the office right now because thats installing and I was sitting in my chair twiddling my thumbs like an asshole; Impatiently waitng. I can’t do much beyond blog on this computer, so it needs to hurry upon. I guess I’ll just go find something to randomly clean, organize, or sanitize. Or steam.. I like steaming clothes lately.

Also, I’m quite aware that it’s September 11th. I’m sure many of us have deep emotions about this date, but I just don’t feel its necessary to make an entire blog about it to get hits for updating and give something for people to just read. My deepest emotions still go out to the loved ones who lost someone on that day.